Thursday, November 18, 2010

Day one: being taught

Every moment that I look at my children I feel thankful to be a mom and feel grateful for the experiences I've had to get me here.  Bear with me as I tell a quick story.

After high school I had to choose between going to SCAD or to BYU. There were many things that led to my decision, but ultimately after going to Savannah and seeing the awesome facilities, history and art coming out of there, I felt strongly that I should be there. So I went.  I enjoyed everything about the school..I played volleyball for them and had incredible experiences doing that, and just learned so much. I grew as an artist and a person.  My number one goal was to come out of school and get a job designing logos and ads for large companies, including Nike.  It was my dream to be successful and knew I could because I could put the time and effort in to being that good.   My third year in I started to get a feeling that I needed to go to BYU. I questioned why over and over again, but while playing in a tournament one weekend, I dove for a ball, and a teammate dove at the same time and we collided at my elbow. It broke. How do you brake an elbow? I don't really know, but I was in pain for a long time (read months and months) because of it.  I broke my right arm and am right handed so it would have been nearly impossible to finish the semester of designing, drawing and painting with my left hand.  Through this and other experiences I transferred to BYU.

Fast forward to the next semester, I was at BYU and applied for the graphic design program and was quickly DENIED. The only word I can use to describe this time was shock. After getting over the disappointment and anger, I prayed to Heavenly Father to know what he wanted me to do.  He told me to go on a mission.

8 months later you could find me in Alberta, Canada in a small town named Red Deer.  We were working with a family whose mother had been meeting with the missionaries on and off for 15 years. She had many things that didn't allow her to yet join the Church, but we also started teaching her children as we were there. One day her 16 year old son broke down crying, telling us he would have to drop out of high school because of what was happening in his life. He told us he was up every morning at 5:30 to wake up his 15 year old brother for school, 6:30 to pack a lunch and get his 6 year old brother off to school, and then watched his 18 month old brother the rest of the day...and then did the cleaning and cooking on top of it all. While he was crying and telling us, the Spirit whispered to me and let me know that my number one priority in this life was to be a mother. I went home that night and wrote down how I felt, what the Lord had told me, and made a promise to make that  happen.

A few years later I was back at BYU with a new resolve. I knew I didn't need to work for large companies, or be successful in the world's eyes. I had a new goal, and knew I had a lot to learn before motherhood which I knew wouldn't be too far off. I applied to the illustration program soon after and quickly got ACCEPTED with the same portfolio I had used a few years earlier. Looking back at these experiences have taught me quite a few things. First, that the Lord leads and guides our lives as we are willing to let Him do so.  He knew what my priorities were at first, and knew that lasting happiness wouldn't come for me through that. He knew what one of my big purposes was here on Earth, and wanted me to remember, and as I let Him guide me, I came to know of them too.  Second, I know that Heavenly Father knows and loves each of His children. I have heard over and over again, people doubting that God really cares or that He really knows what we do. Over and over agian, I am reminded how much He does. That is comforting to know and feel.  And in this circumstance, I am so grateful He let ME know and come to gain a knowledge of my role as a mother and how important it truly is.

I mean, really, who wouldn't be happy waking up in your office everyday, (as it IS open 365 days a year, 24 hours a day) and seeing my cute clients who need so much from you. It is exhausting and exhilarating at the same time, but wouldn't trade it for any amount of "success" in the world's eyes. They are what make my job the best in the world:

So thankful today for being taught from on high and here at home.
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Annie said...

I loved that. I hope those kids know how lucky they are to have you as a mom. Thank you for sharing this.

cheeks said...

i love this!!! motherhood truly is a wonderful job....and look at you using your college skills too with all your creativity on the side!!

Anonymous said...

wow thanks for sharing!!
i really love your CLIENTS,they sure are growing in that nev sun keep the pics coming
love michele and angel

Gazdik Family said...

Beautiful post. What a strong testimony of how the Holy Ghost can lead our lives only if we let him. And he knows so much better about us than we do. So great that your kids are growing up hearing and reading your testimonies. When they question why, they will know exactlly what to do, because their mother has shown them the way. Love you, Kiki!! By the way, you would have doubled the sales of Nike by now!!

kim said...

this entry tells who you really are. How lucky we are to have you in our family circle and how very much you add to it.
I love you!

Hi I'm Apryl said...

I am just reading this today and I really needed it. Thanks Kiki for sharing and for reminding me how lucky I am to be a mom and what an important job it is :)